These are some of the questions I’ve received from readers of A Will of Her Own. If you have a question, please contact me through one of the links at the bottom of the page.
Spoilers – obviously!
Was Sarah’s blue and white silk dress really $3,000? That’s a lot of money.
Yes, she really spent $3,000 on the dress. I’m not sure if my inspiration for the dress (see The Closet) actually had a price tag that high. I wanted to show she was relatively wealthy, though she was usually frugal with her funds.
Why was she waterboarding herself?
When you have a gorgeous Scotsman willing to have sex in the rain, you deal with what you’re given.
Was William’s entire purpose to simply carry her luggage and packages?
Yes! Not really, but he was a very good porter. Sarah started dating William even though they didn’t have any type of spark, because she thought he was all she could attract. Her self-confidence early on in the book wasn’t ready for someone like Max. To be clear, I don’t dislike William, but he wasn’t a good fit for Sarah.
Did Sarah really leave her scarf on the snowman?
Of course. She was heading back to sunny California with no intention of leaving the state, or Max, anytime in the future. Hopefully the new owners of her parents’ house washed it and either used it or donated it.
How could Sarah be so blind to Max’s feelings for her?
Sarah knew deep down that he cared for her, but she wasn’t ready to accept his feelings since she didn’t believe she was worthy of him. Through her relationships with friends, including Max, she gained enough confidence in herself to be receptive to his offering of love.
Why did Sarah think Max was unfaithful to her?
Lack of self-esteem. She made good strides before she started dating/living with him, but she wasn’t emotionally healthy enough to handle the pressure of loving someone in his public position. When Max pulled away from her sexually after Jen’s death, Sarah internalized it as something missing in herself (not pretty enough, not thin enough, etc). It never occurred to her that he was feeling partially responsible for Jen’s accident.
Why did Sarah plan to commit suicide rather than seeking help?
Depression isn’t logical. Hit with one blow after another in a short period of time, she wasn’t able to handle it emotionally. She felt completely alone until Will arrived for what she saw as a final goodbye. Once she began therapy and could see beyond the surrounding bleakness, she could once again make connections with other people. It was important to me that I showed Sarah saving herself. Yes, she had help from Will and, unbeknownst to her, Max, but it was up to her to accept the lifeline they gave her. She pulled herself up out of hell.
